Because its Tuesday night and I have work (again ppfftt) tomorrow I will try my best (like my very best) to feel good and remind myself why I should not (atleast not yet) disappear from the face of the earth...

1. Ayala Ave at night -- Yes there's something to love about Ayala Ave. Believe it or not it looks wonderful and peaceful at night. Without the busy hustle and bustle of the rush hour, it looks perfectly wonderful you'd almost wanna fall inlove with it (owkey that was too cheesy). But seriously, the best part of coming to work every night would be walking from paseo to my building, without off course the noisy call center people who smokes like a chimney and curse like frat boys gone wild. And yes I am one of them.


2. Stuff in Boxes (Packages?) -- Because I am very mature. I have no freakin idea what the hell is up with stuff in boxes. Maybe because I love opening gifts? Because I love surprises? Yes? Or maybe because I fail at dating men who are incapable of giving gifts in boxes or piling up presents in a box? Yes. Definitely. Maybe.


3. Skulls -- HE says its weird. But he thinks its funny. Meh. Skulls are cute. Like Avril Lavigne skulls kind of cute. Like these shoes I saw on multiply.








5. Cucumber Melon -- LOLZ I have been addicted to this scent for God know's how long. Too addicted I ordered 5,000 worth of cucumber melon scented stuff from bath and body a month ago.

6. Coffee in the Morning -- It suprisingly makes my day every single morning. Weird in a good kinda way weirdness.

7. Cuddling & Hugs -- I think everyone likes cuddling. For me it makes you feel funny and comfy and safe. It makes you feel as if everything's gonna be okay after a long tiring day.

8. Teeny Bopper Movies -- They make me giggle. They make me blush. They make me look stupid. But it makes me feel good. Shit did I just try to rhyme?! I suck in it. LOLZ

9. Fries -- Comfort food. <3

10. John Lloyd and Bea -- Ow shut up! *faints*

~ One of my closest friends in highschool is getting married -- god everyone is getting married. Am I that old?! Let's wait for the day where I'd be blogging about my own wedding. Pink pomelo, baby blue, tulips and the rascall flats. Yes all of them in my wedding. *sighs* <3


~ I am on the day shift. Atleast for a month. Its been 4 effin years since the last time I was on the day shift. I love it...sometimes. I mean the part where I have to get up at 4am to get ready kills me...slowly yes. But you see...I have this love hate relationship with my job. And right now I think I hate him because tomorrow I have to come across him again. Oh 8 hours of internet shit is making me sick. I wish I wish I wish...I can find a career that could keep me sane.


~ Tomorrow is Kaye's birthday. Will I be intoxicated? I certainly hope so. I need a drink. Badly. I almost said yes to a drinking spree invitation 30 mins ago.



~ I've been wanting to quit smoking. Ack! Yes I have. I've only smoked one cigi since yesterday. Yay to me. And I did not buy some this afternoon when I was in the grocery. Sometimes I couldn't n take the smell. I'm hoping I could lessen it and hopefully quit again. Owkey...maybe some when I'm drunk. BUT only when I'm drunk...or...drinking.


~  I miss my family. I don't have anyone or any place to run to anymore when I wanna disappear from the face of the earth. There's no place to hide to anymore. And it's killing me.



~ I think Jhay's coming home in 2 weeks. Are you? You're a dick,  you were in Asia a week ago and you didn't stop over?


~ My bath and body stuff are arriving in less than 2 weeks! I'm excited!


~ Yay my Herbed Halibut is cooked! I can now hit the sack.  <3

back again...
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FUNNEH! LOLZ
Try again NEXT TIME.
TRY HARDER OWKEY? HUHLZ
BUT SRSLY?! Honey...stop obsession. See how long you've been on my page?! It's 2010...don't be boring, get over it and move on to the next action.


I bet ya bottom dollar I'll be receiving death threats in a day or two again. LOL

What if you were just sitting there one day, looking at that person realizing that you can never buy his and hers watches or couple shirts and wear them together or maybe purchase matching shoes not only because its on sale for buy one take one but because it looks cool too?

You can't because you suddenly realized that even after painting a smooth picture of you and him together in your head you wake up and remember that he can never be yours?

Lemme just say how fucked up I am for putting an end to my none existent writing career. It  ended before it even started. See, I applied as a freelance writer for essays.ph and part of the application was to write a 500+ article with a specific title. Plus the words melon, god, megamall and another word (that shit I cannot, for the love of me remember)has to be in it. Anyway it has been almost a week and my constipated brain just couldn't produce anything decent...damnit.
 
So anyway, I have 3 NEW unhealthy addictions.
 
1. Signature Bags -- I shit you not when I say that I was THIS close to purchasing a Michael Kors bag online that costs 9,000 pesos. Ya think it's expensive? nah. That's pretty cheap for a Michael Kors bag. A friend says his shades costs 4,000 pesos in rockwell. I say 9,000 is pretty cheap for a bag of such name. I swear this bag addiction will be the death of me.
 
2. Tumblr -- I've been obsessin over it since last week. I just don't have time to obsess over it. Did I make sense? No. I'm gonna try to tweet and beautyfy it later or tom. Hopefully. And maybe I'm gonna move there. Then again
 tumblr aint for drama. gah I'm blabbin.
 
3. Coffee and Cigarette -- A very bad combo. Indeed. The last time I said that I got in trouble...literally. And no fuck that I aint goin into details. Anyhoots, I noticed that I've been extremely dizzeh and feelin crappy the whole week. Could be because I have my period and that I am PMS-ing (indeed) and or I am sick. Now that sucks, but I am so not going to the doctor anytime soon. I drink atleast 5 cups of coffee every day for 4 days straight now and then smoke like a chimney. Bad combo. But it surprisingly takes the stress away. Good luck to my lungs and my sanity.
 

I have to freakin try writing that article again. That's the only way out of this world I'm in to right now, I freakin need to go out there and explore the world and be who I wanna be. LOLZ where the hell did that come from. Saaareeey It's my 2nd cup of coffee and I guess tha caffein is just kickin in.
 
I need a really really reeeaaallly good hand cream for my hands. They're freakin dry. Ack.


And god damnit I hate explaining things and myself to other people. So if yer here to read this blog...just read. STOP MAKING LOUSY COMMENTS AND ASKING STUPID QUESTIONS. If you can't help it...leave

I. For the love of me...is about ready to commit suicide right this very moment because of anxiety and stress.
 
I need a new job.
 
I want new shoes.
 
I need (yes NEED) a hair re-bond.
 
I want a laptop bag.
 
I need to be more responsible.
 
I want a balenciaga motorcycle bag.
 
I need (I fucking need) this job
 
 
I do? Ow riry?
 
Yes.
 
Why?
 
Because I need moneh for my shopping vice (addiction I say)
 
No shit.
 
Lets dial 1-800 - daddyhelpmeidontlikemyjobanymore


ow. it's 2010?! what the hell?!

Are these!

1. Blue Kamiseta Peggy Sue Flats - I fell inlove with this the moment I laid eyes on it. I fell madly inlove when I wore it. It feels and looks like as if it was made for me. <3 I think its a bit pricey for 2,000 pesos. I mean I had a Marc Jacobs flats a couple of years ago which I bought online for just 2,500. I mean for a local brand I think It's a bit pricey, then again It looks so nice and feels so good I think its gonna be worth the money. I'm a size 8 btw. HUHLZ

2. Bayo Unicef Hoodies - This. Baby. Has been on my list for the longest time. I've been drooling over this for the longest time and finally there are stocks in Bayo. So I figured I'd buy it for myself instead. Heh. I was in Bayo Megamall days ago and I couldn't find it. I wanted to faint, cry and throw tantrums when I couldn't find the big basket of hoodies in their window until I saw a stack of them hiding in one of Bayo's racks. Hah! This is Love! <3 

3. Hellolulu laptop Bag in Gray & Pink -- I was in MAC the other day in Megamall and found this baby. It's super nice and the color's just so girly. I've been looking for a nice girly laptop bag and this bag just caught my eye and made me fell inlove with the gods of laptop bags. lolz They have one like that in Gray and Pink in Mac Mega. Hay it's LOVE!


4. Motorola RAZR2 V9 in Red -- My pink V3x Motorola is about ready to die. I bet to my skull that if only she can talk she'd be screamin and running away from me. Begging me to replace her and buy a new one. It's just too important to me that I've never really thought of buying a new phone. But a couple of days ago I had to have it fixed again (for the nth time, damnit!). And I guess its time to let it go and have it replaced. She needs to rest too you know. LOLZ plus some of the buttons on the side have fallen out. I just love how nice and sleek motorola phones are.

5. Ipod nano in pink -- I originally wanted the other ipod nano. But I don't think they're still out in the market. But I was in MAC the other day (wtf didn't I just said that?!) and I got to see the new nano, I think it's pretty cool. Nice colors and its slim and gorgeous. Me thinks its teh shiznet.  I just want a new ipod and I'll be a happy happy girl already.

6. Ugg Boots -- This I'm expecting to get from my sister. She promised she'd buy me one when she gets to OZ. The ones here don't look original to me. And off course the best place to get em is where they originated. Hahay! Sister! My sister...Ugg boots!

7. Chanel earrings -- Baby I have one word for this. DADDY. LOLZ  I remember saying a couple of weeks back (on my birthday wishlist) that I don't really mind buying a fake chanel earrings similar to this one because I bet the original one is soooo expensive. But when I saw how pretty it really is...gaaaaaaaaahhhh. I want one.
17, 000 for a pair of chanel earrings aint bad. Daddy...christmas?! yes?


8. Tickets for Urbandub's last gig for the year -- THEY  are freaking back with a new album! These guys are just love love! Yes I scream and act like a giggling Highschool girl whenever I watch them <3

9. Rotating Ceramic Brush -- Just because it makes your hair look nice and plump. I don't like it when my hair looks flat and straight. I mean I want it straight, I just don't want it too flat.

10. MAC Style Minx Lipglass -- From the Heatherette Collection. This Collection was released mid last year. This Collection along with the Barbie loves Mac collection are two of my favorite Mac collections. The pallets and shades of colors are so girly. I could'nt find it in the Mac website anymore but I'm hoping I can still find it in Rustans. I just love how it makes the lips look fresh. Hah! I love! Fingers crossed!

I was suppose to write something emo and shit and fucked up because my famelee (no! I did not misspelled family, dun be stupid) just migrated to Australia and I am fucking left alone in a stinking 3rd world country (where bitching is immoral and sleeping around is slutty...wtf?!). Plus I freakin miss my momee too bad I think I'm gonna cry myself to sleep again. What?! Fuck you, stop laughing. Boo!


So anyway, as I was ready to give up on the drama about a "cheap slut" (according to the gf)(and guess who that is) who slept with her "asshole boss" ( who doesn't have balls to stand up for all the shitty things he did and actually makes up stories to get away with his assholeness)who was caught by her "stupid - none mannered - insecure girlfriend" (who happens to be a dentist who can't speak proper english and pretends to be someone she's not and talks shit. ZOMG. SRSLY.) because it has been 2 weeks already and the "noise" has eventually lie lowed and died. But noooooooooo! Just when I though that my life's starting to be boring, viola motherfucker here's another cheap teleserye drama.

A little backtrack. So the boss and this slutty girl has been flirting (at least she thinks they have, now that she thinks about it) since she became his agent. And so one day they got drunk and did the unthinkable (rayt). And the flirting continued until one day slutty girl texted boss asshole and the stupid - none mannered - insecure gf read the message and history was created. That was a Monday and the drama slash text marathon lasted for 6 straight hours. I kid you not. Since then boss asshole (who already resigned from work prior to the teleserye drama) and the slutty girl never talked again. The insecure gf has been quite and has calmed down after that too...or so she (slutty girl) thought. SHE HAS BEEN WORKING AND HIDING AROUND THE BUSHES ALL THIS TIME.

So now, slutty girl found out that insecure gf and greenteasam (someone who has been sending her text messages since sunday...saying that the boss is inlove with her. meh. fuck you.) are the same. And this afternoon while slutty girl feels too fucked up and pissed (again because famelee just left for aussie and boytoy has been missing in action for days now) she saw 1 missed call. Guess who. Asshole boss. "Maaaayyybeeee the asshole is gonna borrow money from meeee again" is her first thought. What a freakin loser. So she ignored it thinking she doesn't have the time to play games right now.

Buuuuuuuuuut...to her horror when she gets to work and gets to talk to her BFF slash biatch at work ( who happens to be a man, yes he is a man with a name that sounds like pussy. LOLZ), she found out that the asshole boss called "bff slash biatch" saying  that insecure gf "claimed" she read slutty girl's blog. So she's been starting fights with asshole boss again. That led the boss to call "BFF slash biatch" who told slutty girl about what happened. Here's the  thing...to set things straight...

NUMBER 1 : slutty girl NEVER as in  NEV-EEERRR mentioned asshole boss' name in her blog nor blogged about what happened to them. HE's NOT THAT FAMOUS and HE IS MATTER OF FACTLY TOO MUCH OF AN ASSHOLE to actually waste space in slutty girl's blog entries.


NUMBER 2 : You seriously think you can fuck with me?! I mean me?! ME of all people?! You goddamn think you can mess with my brain and confuse me and make me squeal? goodluck to you on that.

NUMBER 3: Never. Ever, think I can't play these games you play? I play this better than you do. Chatting with men, spreading the word that I'd sleep with anyone and giving out my number in IRC?! Can you ever think of anything more "creative and scary" other than that?! Because guess what, I can always change my number, but YOU can't change your complete name and your clinic's address. You think I don't know?! AND ZOMG. SRSLY?! IRC?! who the fuck chat's on IRC these days?! Oh. I'm sorry...old people like you do. LOLZ

NUMBER 4: Honey, do not push the button too hard. You have been pushing the wrong buttons since day 1. DO NOT MESS AROUND WITH ME. YOU HAVE NO FUCKING IDEA WHAT I AM CAPABLE OF. I already backed away...let me be. OR you'll be sorry...that I PROMISE. Go ahead and BANG your head on the wall if your bored, watch your bf, stop giving him money so he can stop going out for other girls. LOLZ. Vulgar comments on my shoutbox? Ya think I'd cry over that? OMG! so un-urbanized. Does yer patients know yer that stupid?!

AND TO YOU ASSHOLE slash LOOOSSSEEERR:

Keep your insecure uneducated neurotic bitch on a tight leash. At least have the balls to do that owkey? Because trust me...if she doesn't stop making my life hell you'll be fucking sorry you squealed like a bitch and made up stories about me. And maybe you should tell her to check her grammar and check her spellings too.


AND!

O hai thar...is the dentist in?! How desperate can you be? Thank you for adding up hits in my blog. Feel free to backtrack. You just made me 3 more clicks famous. LOLZ Oh! and look you have matching L's on your foreheads. In RED BIG BOLD LETTERS. Changed clinic's yet?! LOLZ


And btw, your comments on my shout out box are very much appreciated. Sorry I had to remove it...it was too vulgar and "squatter-ish". I don't want people to know how uneducated, pathetic, bitter and desperate you are. So un-urbanized. EUW!